5 weeks

Im now 5 weeks, I feel great today! While I am thankful for that, it makes me worry. I felt more nauseous before I found out then after. The symptoms are good reassurance.
But I've noticed my body is getting more used to the injections, maybe that has something to do with it.
I've been a little hungrier the last few days,  although nothing but orange juice sounds good still.  
I have an other blood test monday, ill be glad when they call and say everything is still great and ill definitely feel good after the ultrasound next week.

Update

Most of the time I feel pretty good, just a little sore still and sometimes I feel like I have the flu! I get FREEZING cold, chills, nausea and muscle aches. But it all just comes and goes and I am not complaining!  Im so thankful for all of it!! And I was actually pretty hungry today.
Sometimes I don't think I realize how scared I am. I truly believe everything will be great but every cramp makes me so nervous, even though I know its normal at this stage. I am very conscious of every move and everything I feel. Im not aloud to pick up anything over ten pounds so every time I pick something up I worry, im limited to four five hour days and I sit as often as possible but I worry about that too everyday. My body is tired even though it was used to working nine hours, I do not feel like I've cut hours in half. I think just because I've slowed down so much and the injection pain takes alot out of me. But WHATEVER it takes, im good!  Im just so thankful for everyday and i pray for an other!! I think im almost five weeks and lots of development happens that week , its pretty exciting! 

Lookin good!

My numbers are great! They almost doubled, were at 780 now. Yay!  I feel like I can except it now and I am so happy!
I feel pretty good, although food just doesn't sound good! (Except orange juice ) but I have to force myself to eat because of the blood sugar issues.
Next appointment is blood test Monday and our ultrasound is the 10th I can't wait!!

Best Day!

Yesterday was the best day! We were supposed to be at the doctors office between 7-830, I was too excited to sleep! So, I woke Jason up at 645 and we left.
The nurse told me they wanted my HCG level to be at or above 50. So we I told Jason I hope its at 100 and we came home to get ready for the day ( which was either going to be the best ever, or the worst !) I was a nervous wreck! I turned the ring up as loud as it would go, and I kept checking the phone about every 15 minutes as if I'd managed to miss something. Once we got in the car to leave for my inlaws,  my phone rang. It was them and my heart dropped!  I said please tell me good news she said oh I have fabulous news! My HCG was 409!!! And my hormone levels are perfect!!! I think I thanked her a million times and we agreed to leave all meds the same, including injections. I can suck it up, its a little different when I know im pregnant and its working!  I don't care how bad they hurt!!
Yyyyyaaaayyy! Thank gd!
I love that GD aligned yesterday so perfectly, and we got to see both sides of our families and tell them in person! We had brunch with Jasons family for Easter and celebrated my moms birthday for dinner!! It was the best!
I wish grandpa was here, I know he would be so excited!  But like I told my grandma I know he was with me through the process and helped me stay calm!!
Now I will just continue to be thankful for everyday and pray for an other. I hope the next 36 weeks go fast, smooth and healthy!!
I go again tomorrow to make sure my numbers double, and again next Monday and then they will schedule an ultrasound! ! It seems very surreal still! But im so happy and thankful!
I'm so grateful for all the support and prayers from so many people in our lives. We are very lucky to have such amazing families and the best friends in the world!!!

Blah

I feel like poop! I have baseballs in my butt cheeks and im an emotional mess! I keep blamming everything on the damn injections but who knows and im so scared to get my blood test!
Im in good shape ;) here comes my longest day yet...

Thank you tylenol!

I wish I gave in and taken tylenol much sooner! Im just so weird about taking stuff and usually tylenol doesnt do much. But, i was wrong, I feel So much better! still sore of course, but that's nothing. I did just have a little freak out of oh my gosh what am I going to do if this didn't work...

To test or not to test

Tomorrow is day 7 and I've been considering doing a home test. But I think im too scared! I might just wait until Monday ... I really want to know and  I think I will be less anxious Monday but for the first time in 4 1/2 years, I am scared!! Sometimes I think I am, I've noticed a thing or two that happened when I was pregnant with the boys. I also sometimes wonder if some of the nauseousness isn't all from the injections. If that's the case this pregnancy is going to be completely opposite.
I have slept more this week then ever! Yesterday I slept until 8 and ended up taking a nap in the afternoon. I went to sleep before ten last night and slept until 8 again ! I never do that and I feel so tired again!  Maybe I've had too much now?? I just blame everything on the injections!!
Its funny but i havent blown my nose since Friday i only wipe it, if i feel a sneeze i rub it away and i do everything in my power to not cough even a little!
I am still so suprised at how not anxious I've been! I prayed for months that gd would take away my anxiety. Im so thankful!  
Im glad to not be working today, I do something and then sit for a while. But im worried about Saturday it will be the longest day yet, hopefully tylenol will help make it through and I wont come home sick like yesterday. I have to work, something has to give!!
Looks like time for a nap :) and then perhaps I should do some laundry I've been pretty worthless. Im a HUGE baby when I don't feel good. Poor Jason!

Complaining.... again!

Omg im so sore again I feel sick. Im even super freezing and shivering its so weird!
What is the deal with left side! Yesterday was just muscle soreness and today is hell again.
As it turns out I'm pretty frickin glad the doctor the restricted me to no more than 5 hours of work a day. I feel like I worked 10 hours today easy and they had me cancel tomorrow. I felt really guilty about it at first but now I am so thankful.  I know that this is totally worth it but I cannot wait untill these injections are done.
On a good note my numbers are much much better !! But were not going to change anything so they don't drop.

Getting better

The injections are getting better, when they use oil that I am not allergic to, and we get the injection in the right spot! its only muscle soreness and not excruciating pain. (Although it kind of feels like your laying on little golf balls) but  Apparently we got a little too close to the sciatic nerve and then heating it with the heating pad made it worse! Oops, perhaps they should of given us directions.
They took blood today to see if progesterone levels are high enough we can knock it down a little. 

Im figuring out that as the injection works its way through my system I feel better. It seems like three hours after we do it,  it starts hurting and continues to gradually get worse for about 10 hours and then its just muscle soreness. I've realized if there is a positive to the pain it definitely keeps my mind off of the pregnancy.

pics

embryos

Painful

Last night I felt so sick to my stomach from the pain I couldn't eat dinner. I was uncomfortable and miserable in every position I just sat and cried, I was uncomfortable in my own skin. Finally at 8 I just had to go to bed.  I pretty much fell right to sleep, When I heard jas and the dogs come up I got out of bed to say good night and use the rest room I was sure the night had to be halfway over, it was only 930. Ugh.
After every miserable move and turn last night morning is finally here. I emailed the dr last night I really hope there is an other option.  I keep telling myself there is no physical pain that will ever be as bad as the emotional pain I've already been through.  I will do what it takes. I just wish this could be a little easier and a lot less painful! !
I just hope and pray with everything I am, that I am pregnant. 

Getting up!

Yay time to get up! Im so glad. Although im a little ( ok a lot) paranoid about every move I make.  And omg my ASS hurts! These damn injections are hell!!! I really hope ten days is all of that!!  I made my way upstairs last night and slept great it was a really good decision. 
Time actually went by pretty fast this weekend I got spoiled and surprised  with visits and bed rest gifts.
Im surprisingly still not anxious,  not quit sure I know who I am right now. I guess when its ment to be it all works out somehow.  I've been praying for months that gd would take away my anxiety through this. I hope this week goes as well. Not sure how im going to work when I hurt so bad,  but I will figure it out!!

The pain from this shot is unbelievable!  It hurts so bad I can't sleep its awful! its making me a little nauseous
What am I going to do! I want to do whatever it takes but I have to take care of me too I can't do this for one more day

Ouch!

Holy shit my leg hurts! This injection is horrible!  My entire thigh is killing me! At least 10 days of this I might lose my mind!

I just got on the other site just to see what the blog looked like and  I know I warned that my spelling was bad but gees! When I get going I guess I forget proper grammar!  As if spelling isn't bad enough I use words wrong like there and their etc.. oops!

Side notes

A few random things from today, first of all, after the lab we went to the surgery center waiting room. This guy (a serious goober) is in there with a toddler (unsaid rule, just common sence no one takes a kid/ baby to a fertility clinic. Those that do get serious glares. Its few are far between but some people are dumb) anyway, this girl looks like a major raga muffin, barefoot running up and down the (silent) hall screaming, wanted my water bottle and the dad just watched it all.
Totally inappropriate!
When we get back to our room we can hear her screaming! Which means the entire huge building can all also hear! Omg! Wow!
Secondly, you have to drink all this water before transfer and cant get up for an hour so they give you a bed pan. As it turns out I cannot pee laying down! But it was funny!!
Lastly, good thing I was on my game this week and was able to watch out for there mistakes because after everything else this week they almost gave me an injection today that im allergic too! Good thing they are the best in the world!! I do love dr. Schoolcraft though! He is great to me always! Jas drove me home and went downtown to get the right ones. Gave me the first in my leg hopefully I don't have any reaction to this. I emailed my nurse because I was concerned about the progesterone level and she said this injection will help pretty quick!

Great news and bad

First of all transfer went great and as smooth as possible. Embryos are were 100% after thawing. Dr. Schoolcraft said it doesn't get better then that. BUT, unfortunately my progesterone level is super low. They bumped up to four a day plus an injection. Let's just hope it climbs quick... but im home and on the couch. Thinking only positive thoughts. It is weird to think technically right now im kinda 5 days pregnant with two. Let's hope it stays that way!

Almost there

Im getting a little nervous and Jason isn't even attempting to help keep my mind busy!
I did blood  and We just got into our room. The girl next to me, name is Stephanie too! That makes me nervous!  She said they're very very careful and we have nothing to worry about.
Were waiting on the acupuncturist now...

Truly grateful

I feel so incredibly loved today. I have had so many friends, family members and even clients call or text already,  bringing food and care packages. I can't believe it, and the amount of people taking time to say prayers for us is amazing. I feel so lucky and blessed.
I've packed up and moved down stairs. I have my pillow all ready, it plugs into an ipod and I have relaxing music on it and laurens mom made me a lavender pillow that you stick in the pillow case. It has natural lavender in it which is a calming scent. This has been such a group effort! 
Im a very lucky girl.
Thank you!

24 hours to go

Everything is good to go for tomorrow.  We check in at 1115 and transfer is at 1. Im feeling good and not too anxious, yet!
Definitely ready for the next 11 days to be done!!

Getting better

Estrogen is getting better up to 290 and they want it about 300. Now it would be awesome if the nurses would get it together!  I have to go again tomorrow morning to check progesterone levels. I even asked today because I knew I was supposed to have both done. Ugh!
Oh well almost done.

Big suprise

SHOCKER!! my body is being stubborn, again! Estrogen is only half way still. Already on four patches and a pill now the pill twice a day... come on body figure it out!

Less then one week to go

My trip to south carolina was amazing!  I had such a great time. Now that my mind isn't busy with travel details its a little harder not to think about ivf stuff and to stay completely calm.
Today was an ultrasound and blood test, as far as the ultrasound goes everything looks perfect, yay! Tomorrow all the meds change, one last blood test next week, and then transfer Friday, bed rest for the weekend and then the dreaded ten day wait!!