Perspective

First of all, I was feeling a little overwhelmed at the bills for my portion of my cercloge surgery. Then I got the final statement and when I realized that 20 minute procedure cost $29,000, I was suddenly relieved that I only had to pay $2,800 ish and im so thankful for insurance! !  Funny how quick your perspective of something can change!
Then, I recently ordered some books that OBX recommend on multiples. They also just came,  so I just started reading one called twin sense. I am only 11 pages, (of good size print) in. It has covered how "exponentially harder" caring for twins is, then a singleton, how normal life tasks become "a virtual olympian challenge ", how you should say goodbye to all of your free time,  money, sleep etc... oh yes and how high risk it is and all the complications from pregnancy to delivery. This book could scare the crap out of someone! (I am now contemplating if jas should actually  read it) But It just makes me laugh. While I am in no sort of denial- I am well aware of what we are in for. It makes me excited!  Having your hands full, is way better then empty!  I plan to embrace the sleepless nights, endless feedings, diaper changes and tears. When you've held silent babies in your arms, a crying baby sounds like music to your ears.  (Again,  im not in denial, I realize it will all be super tough and with time get old -like tears and diapers) but I especially realize how special each moment of everyday will be and how fast it will all go by. I will absolutely cherish every second. Personally I think after watching my friends with toddlers and infants that seems harder.
Only time will tell! I cannot wait!
Im so Thankful to be a blessed with so many family and friends, who are anxious to help and be a part of the babies lives!