Head games

It is 2 am and I cannot sleep to save my life, (and in order to not rip Jasons head off for snoring so loud the neighbors should be able to hear him, I am now on the couch). I don't remember the last full night of sleep I had.
And apparently my mind is too busy too sleep.
For anyone else who's always been a compulsive yo yo dieter. You understand the "head games" that come with the "deprivation" feeling. They took me off of metfomin two weeks ago  (which they put you on for and the insilin resistance part of pcos) and in fear of constantly getting shaky, I was eating more often, healthy, but non the less more often. That started out as a good thing, but with the small dietary restrictions of no  caffeine, chocolate (which i dont typically eat anyways, so its really stupid!) mixed with remembering conversations with my old Fertility doctor about sugar... let the head games begin. (If you've never struggled with any sort of eating issue im sure that sounds psyco!) But crazy or not its real and mixed with all hormones its been a constant battle this week.  I've had cravings like I havent eating for days!
looking back, I think i've eaten like a pig!! Now, I feel fat and bloated (not to mention my overies are enormous) so instead of sleeping im torturing myself about what I shouldn't have had and of course it wouldn't be me if I didn't start worrying about something! So my mind began racing about hyper stimulating and what if that's why I feel this and that...
With that said, good thing I have an appointment in a few hours!
(And here is an other good reason for a blog! Its good way too get everything out of my head. Perhaps I should have started journaling  years ago)