Done

On my way home! So glad today is done. Im definitely crampy, I planned to tough it out. I hate taking stuff pregnant but apparently the cramps can cause contrations, so pain meds every four hours for a few days. 
They did 2 ultrasounds today, I got to see them before and after. It always makes me feel better! Im so spoiled from the ultrasounds at ccrm and Obx being on big screen tvs that the little machines are hard to see!! But they both were very active as always!!

Cont...

I have eaten and im getting feeling back finally, including the cramps. Im so ready to get out of here!  I still have a cath in, gross!  And iv as well as these messager things on my legs that is  making them sweaty!  They want me to eat and drink a lot, yet no one comes to check and I've only had lunch and 2 cups of water all day.
My aunt was working here at skyridge today so she was able to sneak in and see me a couple times which was nice especially before surgery when I was nervous. 
Now I just have to walk and pee and I can go home...

Cercloge

I am now laying in recovery, waiting for the anesthesia to wear off. I can't even wiggle my toes right now.  She just said it could be 6 hours until we can go home. Buy everything went good! We had to wait a long time in the waiting room before they finally called me back and I was starving and impatient! (I guess they were supposed to have me back at 9 so when my Obx nurse came and I wasn't there they thought I wasn't coming, they were getting ready to call us.)
When they got me back and in a pre-op room, they did an ultrasound, iv and vitals, we had to wait for the dr to show up for an hour. (He got the whole o.r behind)
It is the weirdest feeling to be wheeled around on a hospital bed, just watching the people go by. Once in the OR there was my anesthesiologist, skyridge nurse, Obx nurse, 3 surgery techs and Dr.Stettler. I got really scared before they did the spinal and starting crying. It was scary and im emotional!  First he put some stuff that burned in my iv and then did the spinal, it wasn't awful just a little uncomfortable. Then they moved my numb body around as I just stared at the ceiling. They put my legs up in stirrups, no covering everything just hanging out there!
I was completely aware and awake for the surgery which was very weird! My anesthesiologist was so great, I loved him, he explained everything I was hearing and talked to me often.  They had a drape up so I couldn't see much just hear all the weird sounds. I only felt the pressure,  it felt like they were pulling the inside of my inside bellybutton towards my whoha. It wasn't painful just very weird! Now waiting for a room,  lunch and feeling in my legs in pacu. I have to eat,  walk and pee before im out of here...

13 weeks!

I couldn't be more excited to be at 13 weeks. First trimester behind us, ready for this week be over! Im anxious for Thursday, I just want it to be done and know everything is ok. Only a few more weeks to find out what they are! I think I might of felt them move this week but im not positive,  we'll see what happens this week...
I haven't gained weight yet and im eating frequently and doing my best, although it hasn't been any easier especially at dinner. I had a few really blah days last week. The nurse had me switch to whole milk. Although, I do have a theory. When I'm not pregnant I work out hard 6 days a week. Now im not doing anything,  so I think im exchanging muscle for fat. And because muscle weighs more than fat, it would make sense I could gain weight and not see it on the scale for a while. My tummy is definitely growing and im eating constantly! It takes a lot of healthy food to meet all these requirements for multiples!

Test results

At the 12 week ultrasound they test for downs (and 2 other things, but I have no idea what she said). They just called and everything was perfect!
I always love good news! !

(Side note)

This weekend my friend Mandy came over. While she scrapbooked, I made a pregnancy journal. In the process of getting it together, I printed out the blog so far. Apparently when im in the moment and my brain is thinking faster than I can type, intelligence goes out the window! Although predictive text does not help anything, ( because I always use the app on my phone) I could not believe the amount of mistakes, not only in spelling but grammar! I promise I'm not as stupid as i made myself look!
BUT on a positive note, I am pretty excited about this pregnancy journal!

12 weeks

I had my pre-op, and first trimester appointment today.
Im nervous about the cercloge, but I just have to trust everything will be good. Your awake and just numb for the surgery. Its spinal anesthesia,  which makes me nervous too. I can't wait until its done.
The appointment went great, everything is perfect so far! I rlove when they move around,  its so cool to watch they are so cute! It's so weird that something can move inside of you and you can't feel it. Crazy! They both had their hands up by there faces and they're heads are next to each other. Both heart rates were in the 160's.
Im starting to show and kind of fitting into some maternity clothes, they are a little too big but I feel like I definitely changed the last week. My nurse said I've gained 3 pounds but its not enough,  she wants 20 lbs by 20 weeks. I don't see how that's possible,  although I am having to eat more now. If I wait until im hungry, its too late and I dry heave. Its ridiculous but kind of funny. The other day bud and I were sitting on the couch and it happened,  he turned and cocked his head and just stared at me like what the heck is wrong with you. I cracked up!  So now imconstantly eating to avoid that!! Although nothing really sounds good still...
my next appointment is the surgery on the 30th, a check on that a week after and then our big appointment july 22nd and we will get to find out the sex.
the first pic is their heads together,the middle one is B with its hand up amd the third is A with its hand by the face.

DONE!

I am officially off all meds and have been released from ccrm!
Im 11 weeks now,  im so happy about that. I will feel even better in a few weeks when surgery is over and were all good. Jason talked to them today about the surgery. He had some concerns, and will be out town for the appointment Friday. They reassured him that all signs point to incompetent cervix and that the risks of a cercloge are very low. Although its  spinal anesthesia, which scares the crap out of me!  But that is how they can  stop it from affecting the babies. It is such a blessing that im having twins!! so, I can do all I need to do and then we are done! And life is going to be amazing!  ( Today I was reading this book about twins, and it talked about 2 times the trouble, because multiples don't take the traditional roles of first child middle child etc... all I could think about is all the trouble jason got in all on his own! Wow we are going to have our hands full!!
Better then empty! I can't wait!!)

No more meds!

Had a blood test this morning,  my nurse just called and said numbers went up!  She needs Dr. Schoolcrafts permission to completely take me off and he is out of town until tomorrow so tonight should be it. Im only on one estrogen pill and one progesterone at night now but I will be happy to be done! Although I've learned every time they reduce, it causes an emotional rollercoaster. It really increases anxiety, which leads to a little freak out and lots of emotions and bad dreams.  With that said I had an ultrasound Tuesday, I had had a few rough days and this irrational fear that what if their hearts stopped beating ... I can't explain it. My nurse had me come in for an ultrasound and thankfully everything was great. One of the babies was moving all over the place it was so cute, they look like mini babies right now it was adorable. The other one was just hangin out. But I got to see the heartbeats which is just what I needed! They may have me come in once a week. My next appointment is next Friday its the end of the first trimester. There was a chance we could find out the sex but I want to wait until after surgery, which worked out good because Jason will be out of town and mom is going with me, so we will find out in July!!

Good news!

Yay! I love good news!! Numbers went up again even though we are reducing meds. Almost off everything,  blood again Monday. Estrogen was up to one thousand seven hundred and something and progesterone was up to 31.

Last night was a little rough, I was crampy so I kept having bad dreams about it. I woke up one million times. My "morning sickness" always comes at night now. I feel great in the morning, by noon- 1 it starts and comes and goes all day. Peppermints have helped more then anything so far but by dinner it gets pretty bad and by 8-9 im in bed trying so hard to sleep and not puke! I hope that goes away soon! Its definitely good reassurance, but I wont miss it!
I've also learned the emptier my stomach gets the sicker I get. Im trying to eat every two hours at least something small even if its just a cracker and it helps. No cravings still, and even though my tummy is growing I haven't gained anything that I lost, which im really surprised. By the end of the next two weeks I should of gained 3-5lbs. With multiples they worry more about weight gain but she did tell me first trimester is about survival but then they are really going to be on me about it. Im definitely eating more then I was, not all i need to be yet but more! We will see how it goes. Sunday is 10 weeks!! Wahoo!

Surprise visit

I had a little surprise visit with the babies today. On Friday, they took blood and checked things like blood sugar (because of the pcos they have to watch that close) thiroid etc... so my nurse called this morning to tell me everything looked great. She also told me they had done a little research into the arnica gel I used and it can cause miss carriage. Since it has been over a week since I used it, and two weeks until my next appointment she had me come in for a "reassurance" ultrasound. I love this place!! 1 I didn't have to pay for it, 2 im never going to turn down a chance to see them and 3 I figured I would save myself a freak out. Once I know that information it doesn't go away and as soon as something felt weird that would be the first thing I thought about!
Everything is still perfect and I can't believe how fast they change! Its amazing!